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I've already talked about what social media meant to me and how it "helped" me when I was feeling worse. 

But the thing with social media is that sometimes it can do worse to you than good. If you have low self esteem social media might be a bad thing for you. Everything that people put on instagram or facebook is never the real thing. Most people tend to post things that make it seem that their lives are perfect. That everything is beautiful, that everything is always okay. These things are only making you feel worse because you feel that your life is not that way. You feel, by comparison, that nothing in your life is perfect, that nothing in your life is beautiful. But the truth is that no one's life is perfect. Nothing really is that perfect or beautiful. Real life doesn't have filters like the ones you put on facebook. Real life is imperfect, real life gets ugly sometimes. 

I know that I'm doing the "look at what I say, don't look at what I do" thing. I use Instagram a lot, I post a lot, I use filters a lot. But that's only a minimum part of what's going on in my life. The rest I keep for myself. And I know that the same happens with other people. But when I'm not posting I'm seeing what others post and sometimes it's horrible because without even noticing it I start to compare my life with the ones I see and their lives are perfect. They are beautiful, they go to beautiful places, they have perfect partners and perfect families. And seeing that makes me feel that I'm on the opposite spectrum. And I do this while having conscience that what I'm seeing is not the real thing. Like with what I do, what they post is only a minimum part of their lives. But when you're down you don't think correctly. You just see the bad side of things. 

I know that people don't believe me when I say that I've been doing an effort to try to use less social media. And sometimes I really am using it less. But the problem is that I still spent a lot of time alone and that's when I use it more. I've been trying to read now, but it's still hard because I can't still concentrate. But like everything in my life now it's a work in progress and step by step I'm going to get there.