Words

Here we are on the last day of the challenge. I'm going to write a post about how I feel about this challenge and there's also a post about what I've been up to in the last month! 

The last question of the challenge is: Today I write the words that I need to hear.

I need to trust myself more if I want to do everything I set myself to do. I can't let my insecurities take over me. I can't let them dictate my life and what I can and cannot do. I've been living like this for so long and it does not make me happy at all. I'm always scared of dreaming and of wanting something more of my life because I feel that I'm not going to be able to get it because I'm not enough. 

I need to stop thinking what others think about me and about my actions. I've been doing this more and it feels so good. It makes me feel so free. I've been doing what I want with my life and I'm really trying not to think about what others might think and most of the times it works. And when it doesn't I make myself think that what others think doesn't matter. It's what I want that matters and I need to fight for it and if someone doesn't like or judges me somehow I just have to keep doing what I need to do to be happy and I can't let their opinion get to me. Sometimes all of this works, sometimes it doesn't. It's a work in progress! 

I need to believe that I'm more than enough. Or at least believe more. I feel that I do believe a little that I'm more than enough but I want to take the little of the sentence. Just a little is not good enough. I want more and I'm fighting to get there. 

I need to believe that I'm going to be happy and that there's something in the future for me. And more than believing in it I need to work for it. You can't expect the outcome to be different if you don't do anything different to get to it. If everything is the same of course the outcome is going to be the same everytime. You can't only wish for things, you have to fight for them. And I'm doing it for myself. 

I need to start trusting more in people. I don't trust in anyone I meet. I can't let my walls down. I always think that they are going to hurt me one way or another. And I need to have a little faith in people. I always did and I miss that. 

I loved this challenge. It made me think and it made me realize more things about myself. I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did!