Happiness

We're ending the second week of the challenge. Only one more week to go and today's day thirteen and the question is: What do I want most out of life?

Happy. I just want to be happy! It might sound stupid but after this bad year that I had I've realized that happiness is the only thing I want. And it's hard to get than it seems. 

I believe the next question might be "and what will make you happy?". I don't know. I still don't know what will make me happy. Or what will make me feel fulfilled. I know I want to have a job that I like, a family, friends and cats! But how to get there? I don't know. No one knows I guess. Do you know? 

I feel better now. I almost feel that the old Teresa that I missed so much is back. But there's still something missing and I don't know what it is. And I think that's what I need to feel completely happy if that's possible. And I don't believe that you need to be older to have everything you ever wanted in life. And maybe the younger you are able to get what you want most of your life, the more goals you'll be able to set for your life, to fulfill yourself.

And yes, I've already reached some goals that I had set for myself, but I've also failed some. And maybe that's why I feel that I failed a little. Because I tend to see things from the wrong perspective. I tend to see what I've failed rather than what I've reached. And I give more importance to the failed ones. That's also what I've been trying to change. I've been trying to change the way I see the things that I do, I've been trying to change the weight I put in the things that I do. To try to see the good things that happen to me and focus on those, instead of focusing on the bad things that happened to me. Like what happened to me this year. Instead of seeing a failed relationship, a depression and a shitty year, I'm really trying to see what I've growth, what I've learned and the fact that I found out that I'm so much stronger than I ever thought. I'm confident, after this year, that I might be able to do everything I set my mind into. I just need to trust and believe in myself. 

But yeah! Happiness is the one thing I want most in from my life. I just want to be happy.