Thoughts

I think this is, for the first time, the first time I have nothing to write here! 

It's been a long road since all of this began. I started to write this blog just to get every thoughts I had out of my mind. Some were horrible, some unfair for some people, some I wouldn't write again. But at the time it was what I had on my mind and I had to write it somewhere and this was the place where I thought it was a good ideia to do it. And it helped (it is still helping - this is not a goodbye!) me a lot! I never thought that writing everything I had on my mind would helped me like it did. In here I was capable of not only getting my thoughts out of my mind (the ones that were really bugging me), but also to get a new perspective on most of them. I really think I started to see things on a new perspective and that writing some things down helped me do it. 

When you write, as when you talk, you get to see things from a different point a view, and, in my case, it was better for me. I know I was unfair when I wrote some things, but at the time I wrote them down it was what I was feeling, but after writing them down I was able to see that maybe I was being unfair and that maybe I should try to give another chance or to try to calm down and think it all over again. I chose to publish those posts anyway because I had those thoughts. I felt the need to write them and it was (is) all part of this depression so it I felt that I should post them anyway. I wouldn't write them again because I want to believe that now I wouldn't have those thoughts. At least not in that way. 

Thoughts are a very dangerous thing and I chose to write mine to try to help someone that was (is) going through the same as I am. I know that we are not the same and that depression is not the same for everyone, but, I found out that talking to people that are going through the same helped me a lot. Firstly, you do not feel alone, you get to talk to someone that's going through the same as you are going through and, when you're dealing with depression, that's an important thing (in my humble opinion) because depression makes you feel lonely and abandoned, even when you're not. Secondly, because the people I talked to made me see that taking antidepressants was not the end of the world. They can help us and they are not the bogeyman I thought they were. And thirdly, because, at least with the people I talked to, they gave me tips of coping mechanisms for me to do everytime I had a bad thought or everytime I was crying. And, adding those tips to what the psychologist taught me, it helped me a lot. 

So, you have to do whatever you need to do to feel better. If you need to write, write, if you need to talk, talk. But I think it's great when you have a way to expose your thoughts. Even if it's only for yourself.