My brother

My brother and I never had that "brother&sister" you sometimes see. We were close but not too close.  And we used to fight a lot while growing up. A lot really! He would really get on my nerves! Do you know what I mean? I love him and he's my brother! And he turned out to be the best brother I could ever had. 

When I started dating my first boyfriend my brother changed his atitude towards him completely. They were friends and from one moment to another my brother started to make this childish tantrums and to be very rude. I thought that it was just because he was a child at the time.  When we broke up my brother returned to his "normal" self. Time passed and I never thought about this, but a few weeks ago I was talking to his best friend and we were talking about everything that I was going through and he told me that my brother never liked any of my boyfriends. Any. With time he started to like some of them but the others he never liked them. Even the ones he never met or the ones he only met a few times! And now I can see that! I can connect his actions with this, at least with my first boyfriend!

When my ten year relationship ended my ex boyfriend said some pretty nasty stuff to me, one of them being that my brother had told me that he was tired of me and that he really never liked me. I didn't believe it completely at the time, but, my lack of self esteem let that got into my head a little. But the truth is, that after one week of the end of the relationship he invited me to go to a concert (Cuca Monga!). And after that he always tried to include me in the plans he makes with his girlfriend (concerts or things that he likes I know) and our relationship changed a little. I think it made us close.

I kind of try to tell him everything that I'm going through. He's not a very talkative person but I really try to let him in on my life! And since I August he's been a rock. He's always by my side and he supports me a lot. He doesn't say much, but he does things. He invites me to do things with him and on his own way he lets me know that he cares. I don't need someone to tell me that they care about me or that they like me. I need people to show me that they do. Sometimes actions mean more than words and I always try to do things more than say so I like when people do that with me. I know that he really cares about me and that he gets worried when I'm down. We still fight a little, but over the years I've learn that having a brother is the best thing you can truly have. We are connected in a way that I'm not connected with anyone else and that's something special.