Life in Porto

Since the beginning of 2019 I've tried to have a routine in Porto to see if it that could help me while I had to stay there. 

On Mondays I go to the gym, on Tuesdays I have bass class, on Wednesdays I have music class and on Thursdays it's gym again. Going to the gym has been the hardest! I never want to go and everything can be used as an excuse to not go. But I try and I make an effort. 

I really don't know if this is what has been helping me or if it is the way I'm thinking now or maybe it's a combination of both. But the truth is that it's been easy to stay in Porto. I've been happier there. And it's not because of someone. In December I used my cousin as a kind of help to tolerate Porto but he's only returning to Porto at the end of February so I'm "alone" there! I still don't think I will be able to go out there. I still feel kind of lost sometimes, sad even. But I try not to think about it. I try to accept that I'm sad and move on.

I also try not to compare my life now or my happiness now to my happiness last year around this time. I can see that that makes me get sad and down. So I'm always fighting that. It's hard not to make the comparison and I don't know if fighting against it it's the best solution but right now I can't see another solution to this. I guess if I reached this point I will be able to surpass it. 

More and more I know that I have to do things on my own. And I know that I will be able to get my life back together again.