Capitão Fausto

Capitão Fausto are one of my favorite por bands at the moment. And you may wonder why the hell am I going to write about them. I felt the need to write about them because their music is something I associate a lot with happiness and with me feeling happy. 

I started to listen to them more after my ten year relationship ended. At the time my brother and his girlfriend took me to one of their concerts and I just fell in love with their music. After that I think I went to almost all of their shows near me and I would always listen to them whenever I felt happy. 

While driving I was always listening to them and I loved it. I loved driving and listen to music but while listening to them it was even better! But after July I just couldn't listen to them at all. Because I would just cry. And it's horrible when you're listening to one of your favorite bands and you cry and you feel this pain inside you that shatters you. I have to say that this didn't happen only with Capitão Fausto. I still can't hear most of my favorite bands. That scares me a lot and I try not to think about it. 

So I stopped listening to them. I just wouldn't or couldn't listen to them. Why listening to something that was going to make you suffer. Something that was going to make you remember of times when you felt happy, when you felt your life had meaning? That would even add more pain to the one I was already feeling. It was and still is one of my coping mechanisms. Not do anything that would make me feel the pain, that would make me cry and feel miserable.

They launched two new songs of their new album and I listened to them and I felt them so much inside me. The lyrics seemed to touch a something in me. Last week they were going to have a concert in Braga and I thought I should go and I asked my friends to go with me. I went with one of them and I had so much fun. I felt alive again, I felt so good. I was able to talk to them in the end of the concert and they were so nice, so easy going and so approachable It's so weird how music can have this effect in me. How it can make me happy and feel good. And what I feel now is that Capitão Fausto's songs make me feel again. Some of them still make me sad but I can take it now and I refuse to let this sadness stop me from listen to them. 

Since their concert I've been listening to their songs a little bit more and also while driving, specially the new ones, because although they talk about things that I am/went through this past months and things that touch me a lot, I like to listen to them and I feel that they are helping me.