Work plan

Last week was the week I put my work plan to use. I defined what I wanted to do on each day and I tried to keep up with it. Of course not everything went the way I wanted but, even so, it was good because it made me start to organize my work and it made me think about all the things that I needed to do to do the work right. 

Honestly, I didn't thought I was going to be able to do it. I thought that it was just going to happen what always did: even though I wanted to work I wouldn't. But I did. And it felt great. Really! I felt another person this week. I felt that maybe I can do what I set myself to do. Somethings didn't go as I wanted but I was able to overcome that without stressing, without panicking. When something that I wasn't expecting happened I was able to think clearly and overcome that. 

I wrote a lot. Maybe not as much as I should, but more than what I was writing in the past months. And I felt good while writing, it didn't felt like a burden. It felt right. I still don't like to do it, but I did it without stoping every 5 minutes like I used to. I was able to write for 30 minutes straight most of the times. Again, it's not much and it's nothing extraordinary, but I couldn't do this last week. Last week if I wrote a sentence in 30 minutes it was a lot. I even worked at home. Instead of laying in bed like I used to, this week I picked up the computer and I tried to continue the work I had stopped when I left college. And I did it. I just had trouble sleeping again. 

So I think that this is an improvement. At least for me, it is. I don't know how outside people see this but it felt good to have my colleagues at least encouraging me to continue. And it felt good to have them offer help if I needed. Some people there are surprising me.

I think I can compare myself to my old self from May (work related only!). Well, in May I was working better and more, but that was the last time that I was enjoyed my work in college. Since September I don't enjoy going to college. I still don't but at least this week I felt that I can do this, again. And it felt good.