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Writing on this blog has helped me a lot. I still don't know how I have so much to write about. I have to say that sometimes I have to think a little about what I can write but it's never too difficult to find a subject to write about. And even with my lack of concentration I don't find difficult to write something here. I guess it's because these thoughts are normally on my mind everyday 24/7.

The blog helps me keep my mind organized. Instead of having all these thoughts all mixed together, writing about them makes me compartmentalize them. And that helps me a lot. I kind of put them in "shelves" on my mind. Everytime I write about something it goes to its correspondent "shelf" on my mind. I know it sounds weird and I don't know if anyone else does this but this is so good for me. My mind it's a mix of thoughts and having theses "shelves" helps me calm down. 

Most of the time these thoughts were on my mind for days and I would always be thinking about them and most of the times I would make them bigger than what they were and when I write about them it's like I start seeing things from another perspective. I guess it's kind of the same thing that happens when I talk to my psychologist. But with him I have some feedback about what I'm telling him. Here it's like I'm only talking to myself. And when I write it's like I put everything in the same place and it's like everything is on display in front of me and most of the times I can relativize about the stuff I'm writing about and not making of it a bigger thing than what it is.

Sometimes when I'm writing new thoughts come to my mind. Things that I haven't even thought about. Sometimes it's a bad thing because what I think about it's worse than what I had thought on the first place. But most of the times I notice that what I think it's a better thing. I guess it's the relativization of things. You see them from another perspective and most of the times that perspective it's better than the one you have on your mind. Things on our minds always seem worse than what they are and the more we think about them the worse they seem. So writing about them helps me see them from what they really are. I don't make them bigger but also I don't make them smaller. I just see them from another perspective. 

So, an advice I can give you is, write. Even if you don't want to share your thoughts with anyone else, write about them. You'll see it's going to help a lot. I started this blog to write everything that was on my mind while dealing with the depression and it's been a great help. And I'm even enjoying writing.