My cousin!

I have to say that the depression didn't bring me only bad things. One of the good things that came out of this was my relationship with one of mine many cousins!

He's the nephew of my father's cousin that died in August. I've always liked him a lot because he's so so so nice and he has this big heart that you just feel good around him. He's always happy and he always makes you feel happy. He's a musician and I'm so proud of him because I do think he's happy doing what he does.

Ever since Mário died (it hurst me so much to even think about this) I've starting to talk more with Juca. Mainly because he also plays bass so before I had classes he was helping me starting to play! And now because he's living in Porto so we meet more. 

I know he doesn't know this, but he's been like a rock to me. Everytime I'm feeling down I know I can just text me and he will always help me get through whatever I'm getting through. He has dinner with me at least once a week and he has always nice things to say. And he always makes me feel better and makes me laugh. He just has this capacity of making me forget everything. Of making me think that everything is going to be alright. I can talk about everything with him. I know he always listens to what I'm saying and I know that if he has anything to say he will say. He won't say nice things just because I'm down. But he has this way of saying things that I listen to them. And I try to practice what he tells me. He has been helping me a lot during the depression and with my broken heart. A lot. He's the one I send texts everytime bad thoughts go through my mind. And last week I know that if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be able to go through what I did. He makes me feel that I'm stronger. That I can do everything. And I think he's one of the reasons I'm starting to believe that I'm stronger and that I can do whatever I set myself to do.

We just found out that we are both incurable romantics! And he says that's why we feel things the way we feel. Everything is more intense and when we get hurt, everything hurts more! We have this big heart that I'm always complaining about! 

Juca is one of the only good things that came out of the depression. And I'm glad for it. I'm glad of this friendship that's only starting but that's been very important to me. That has been helping me getting through the depression and that has been helping me stay on the path to get out of this. His support is more than what I can ask for and I know he doesn't have a clue about the importance that he has in my life now. Because I know he does this because that's the way he is. He's not expecting anything in return. I know this because this is how I am. We are very much alike. And it's so good to know people like you. Because I'm starting to realize we're not that many. 

I'll forever be grateful to him for the support he gives me.