Happy things

Few things make me happy nowadays. Going home, bass classes, seeing some tv shows and just hang out with some of my friends are the things that I still enjoy doing. And in a way it's been good. I spend more time at home than what I was spending. I spend more time with my family. I even think this brought me closer to my brother. I hang out with his girlfriend more and they have been very supportive and they're always inviting me to do stuff with them (going to concerts, comedy shows or just hang out) and it's been very helpful. My parents have been very supportive also and I really think that without them I wouldn't be strong enough to face this. Even though you have to do all by yourself it's always good to have a support system where you can rely when you're down. I'm lucky enough to have that in my family.

My friends have also been very supportive. I don't have many friends, but the few I have are always there for me. If I'm feeling lonely I just need to call them and they just hang out with me. That way I don't feel lonely and I have someone to spend my time. I don't really like to be alone now. If I'm alone I think and if I think I cry and I feel more lonely and if I feel more lonely I cry even more.

When I feel lonely I tend to watch comedies. I turn Netflix on and I watch most of the comedies shows that are there. Most of them I've already seen but they distract me and they make me smile. Seeing other tv shows sometimes doesn't help at all. They remind me of something or of times I'm really trying to forget and put behind me. 

Bass lessons have been a breeze of fresh air. I'm really liking it and while I'm in class there's nothing else on my mind. Nothing. And it's one of the few times I can listen to music without crying. It's been very good for me. It was the best decision (or even the only good one I've made honestly)  I made this year without a shadow of a doubt.

The only thing that I need to start doing is to start listening to music again, to read again and to start loving Porto again. Because right now, I hate it,